My Felt Tip Pen!

2003-09-07T10:57:00.000-07:00

I finally made the Jump to Live Journal
*my new journal*

It just seemed appropriate since most of my friends are on there. I also don't play with the layout as much as I used too.
I still might post here occasionally though.
Bye bye for now!

2003-08-28T21:01:00.000-07:00

More good new for Mega Tokyo..

"Megatokyo Graphic Novel Coming from Dark Horse in January

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Following rumors earlier this summer that Dark Horse had signed with Megatokyo to print volume two of the popular web-comic (Official reports are that at the time, the two parties were merely discussing the possibility), Dark Horse has officially announced today in a Press Release that Megatokyo volume two will ship from Dark Horse in January.

Anyone who pre-ordered the unpublished book two from IC Entertainment will receive a copy from Dark Horse when it is released.

Additionally, re-prints of Megatokyo Volume 1, should also be available from Dark Horse sometime in the Spring of 2004, after volume 2. The re-prints will feature some changes and additions over the I.C Entertainment print.

Regarding Warmth, Fred Gallagher has informed us that, "they've expressed an interest in it, but I want to get MT settled and in print first before I move on to that. It's really the start of our working relationship, which I think will be a really good one.""

Wow, things seem to keep getting better for this guy. That would be really cool if Dark Horse published "warmth". I post this partly becuase my teacher asked us to write an esay on 'someone who has made an impact on your life' I'm wrteing about Fread, becuase I many ways he's an idol of mine. I always pick off beat chracters to worship. First it was Ray park, now Fred. dear me.....

2003-08-21T18:26:00.000-07:00

well, I am now officially a member of the "cell phone" crowd. A crowd which I never thought I'd be a part of, oh well. I bought myself a new cell phone! and I love it to death. My old one worked, but it was just a piece of junk. It has almost zero features on it. My new one is a flip phone, with a color screen, and those awesome ring tones. I've already bought 3 new ones. My main ringer is on "I think I'm turning Japanese." Anyone who knows me will understand why. Then I have a Smash Mouth song, "I can't get enough of you baby" because it sounds so hip. Then for extra fun I have the Futurama them song.
the funny part is with all these cool ring tones, I almost don't want to answer the phone. LOL.

2003-08-20T22:53:00.000-07:00

Random Gravitation PWP Muse by anahita
Your Name
Gender
Seme	Tohma
Uke	Shuichi
Location	On a warm, sandy beach
Catalyst	Porn

Created with quill18's MemeGen!

thats just wrong.....

2003-08-20T20:50:00.000-07:00

ok, I'm a little confused to why my comics are posted on this message board...or scared. Well, make that angry because they directly linked.

2003-08-19T20:34:00.000-07:00

I thought I'd take a break from my homework to tell ya how college is going.
First of all, I was in almost complete denial and I was just walking from class buying books not really understanding my purpose. Then it hit me as soon as my English teacher began to talking about how difficult this class was going to be and the dedication it would need. It was at that moment my eyes bugged out and I started to hyper ventilate. I am a college student. That means I can't pull the same shit I had all though high school.
It's safe to say I didn't work all that hard in high school. senior year would be a perfect example. I know now, that lazy attitude of mine has to disappear. I can already tell it's going to be a bumpy road.

2003-08-17T21:53:00.000-07:00

Well, tomorrow is the big day.
I start college tomorrow. Kinda scary, kinda exciting.
for the most part I'm nervous. But that's how I always feel when I'm starting something new. All I can hope for is tonight I get a good night sleep, hopefully nightmare free as well. Most of all that I get good teachers, who at lest make class interesting. I also hope I don't get lost or anything.
if I'm not to overwhelmed I'll write about it all tomorrow. Wish me luck!

2003-08-13T00:08:00.000-07:00

ok, since i don't have anything meaningful to write about,
I'll write about anime

Remember this is all just my opinion, it means nothing.

So, about Chobits. I got to episode 15 and they finally cover Shimbo's relationship with his teacher. I mean, I was happy to see they haven't completely ignored it, but why did they wait this long? This is when I frustrated with anime. I just can't stand when they screw with a stories time line.
A manga works more like a book. Duh. Since we can separate things by chapters there can be a few plot lines going at once. That makes things more interesting. Typically when I see manga translated into anime, they have to chop it up, and lengthen segments out to make complete episodes. I don't know if they do this to make the series longer, or that they think the audience can only fallow one story at a time. Anyway, this chopping and segmenting creates a lot of dull space. By "dull space" i mean pointless scenes that do nothing for the characters or the plot. It's fluff, al just fluff sometimes fluff can be good, but most of the time it's just a lame attempt to make things interesting.

Now, There are example of anime that are based on manga that I love. As far as I have read of the manga, Kare Kano made an almost perfect translation onto the screen. It felt like I was almost watching manga. So, I know it can be done. I'm not sure why certain company's feel the need to expand an anime with pointless episodes. I think it's just a waste of time and money, when they should just focus on the important stuff, and spend more time on that. X has a similar problem to Chobits. I agree that X/1999 is a complicated story with to many character for it's own good. But I didn't see the reason why they had to create a back-story for almost every signal one. I felt it delayed to story line, and didn't help in clarifying anything. And once again, they do thing out of order and add pointless things in. My favorite example is Katori's obsession with Indigo. Who cares?

Anyway, it's not like I know anything about making anime, I just like pointing out things that anoy me.

2003-08-11T22:53:00.000-07:00

I went to the mall with my Mom today...
Surprisingly I haven't spent the last few days in front of my computer. My Mom is on vacation right now, so we are spending some time together. We aren't doing anything paretically special, running errands hanging out with family. But I think we enjoy our time together. I know I do.
I been feeling that I let her down, since I don't have a job right now. Bit I feel since school is coming up and I'm going to Catalina in a few days, I'm in no hurry to start looking. I'm rather dreading it actually.

Anyway, looks like I got some cloths for school, skirts and shirts, stuff like that. I also made my usual stop by the Anime Cart. I bought the last DVD for FLCL, and a Haruhala Haruko action figure. It was so cute I couldn't resist (Yeah, I'm 19 and I buy toys, get over it.) She even comes with her yellow Vespa. The box is so cute I almost don't want to open it. But I think she might look nice on my computer.

Oh and I finished Eva. Heheh. I can see why so many people are upset over the ending. But it was less of a blow to be because I already new there wasn't much of one. I actually found it to be funny.
:::spoilerish::::
I mean when you think about it, the whole story about the angels, the Eva's, Nerv, and the characters were all set up so in the end Shinji felt he had self worth. What a kicker. None of the other story really mattered, only that he found his will to live. lol. And everyone thinks it's a story about mecha's saving the world, right? Boy, sometimes these writers like to mess with our heads don't they. Well, I think I must rent the two movies, and I'll see what I think from there.

BTW, I caught 4 episodes for Boogie Pop Phantom on Tech TV on Friday. Now, that show is hard to fallow. Weird too.

2003-08-08T20:44:00.000-07:00

I've been lazy about writing haven't I? on well,

Lets see, I turned 19 on the 5th. I had a small little gathering with Sonja and Dana. They spent the night we watched anime and talked about random stuff.
We also saw Sea Biscuit. I enjoyed that movie a lot.

But I haven't been out much since then. Partly out of lack of motivation, and there seems like nothing worth doing. How typical of me, eh? Well, I have been catching up on my anime.

Right now I'm trying to finish Chobits, Evanagelion, and X/1999. I started them all mouth ago, but haven't finished them yet. Right now it's my goal to see as most complete series, rather than a few episodes of each. So far I've been really disappointed with both X and Chobits. Clamp makes such great manga, but when I comes to converting a lot of their stuff into anime, it just doesn't cut it. X is missing most of the stuff I thought made the manga interesting, then they add in a whole bunch of unnecessary and in my opinion, boring back stories for the characters. Compared to the manga it just sucks. That goes for Chobits too. They took out all the secondary charters' stories and they added in stupid episodes that don't even progress the plot. For example, there is an entire episode dedicated to Chi finding some panties. Give me a break! It wasn't even funny either. I dunno, maybe it's more of a guy thing. Then again Love Hina even did better than that.

Well, as for Eva, Just add me to the list of countless fans. I didn't know much about Eva before is started watching it, plot wise that is, so it's been a lot of fun for me to watch the story unfold. I've discovered recently I like anime that get darker towards the end and Eva certainly dose that. It's just really entertaining. But ti's one of those things you have to watch and judge for yourself. I don't think it's for everyone.

Oh, and Sonja bought Mirage of Blaze. Muahaha! It's not incredibly deep, it's kind confusing, and the animation is average, but I like it. Heh. I think it's cause of the bishounen factor. Yes...yum. And I watched some of the dub, and I wasn't hateing it. that's very unusual for me. And since I've been watch FLCL on TV, the dub for that isn't too bad either, but not perfict. =0P

2003-08-04T18:42:00.000-07:00

eh. i "baleted" this post =P

2003-08-02T21:48:00.000-07:00

hummm....
Something I'm not to thrilled to write about, but I should.
I'm no longer working at Hallmark anymore.
I can't say it was exactly out of choice, but I hope it's for the better.
The environment suddenly got tense over there.
I had made one stupid mistake, which was not over looked by my manager.
Since then I know I had been "marked." I felt I had done my best to improve, but apparently that wasn't good enough. They started giving me less hours, which I thought was a problem. How do they expect me to improve if I only work for 8 hours a week? On top of that school starts on the 18th and there where going to be problems with my schedule. So, the once laid back feeling I had at Hallmark started to disappear, the less I liked working there.
But like I said, since I'm not working there anymore...it won't be a problem.
It's not what I had in mind though. Now I have to go out job hunting again. And hope that I can get a job that will work with my schooling. Maybe the movie theater or Block Buster. Well, we shall see how my luck holds out.
summer is almost over.

And my B-day is coming up..but now, I don't really care.

well art lest i have my gravitaion manag ::hugs it:::

yes, i know. I'm sick. Life would be perfict if i could get a job at the anime cart. =p

2003-07-31T23:44:00.000-07:00

2003-07-31T23:41:00.000-07:00

my Mom made the comment the other day, about how funny I had gotten lately. It seems I've been happier than I have in a long time. Sure life isn't perfect, I have my problems here and there, but suddenly life dosn't seem so hopeless. I wish I could stay that way all the time. Including the people I know and love. Mom is going though a tuff time right now. But I'm trying to be there to listen and support her, like she always dose me. I realized Mom and I are allies. We really need echoer to get though life.

2003-07-31T23:28:00.000-07:00

ahck....the Psycho Dog is staying at my house again while my aunt is away. She's only been here one day and it's almost run away twice. But, I am getting paid. in fact I put that money to good use today. manga = happyness. I acted like such a fan gril today, after two long year of waiting i finally got my own copy of Graviation. I think it's the simple things in life that makes me happy.

2003-07-31T14:08:00.000-07:00

http://ronny.infor.org/movie/c3p.mpg
the laugh of the day

2003-07-28T09:29:00.000-07:00

i didn't get much sleep last night, I was tossing and Turing.
I was worried about my class schedule but I think things worked out OK, I just did it online. I didn't get exactly what I wanted but the good news is, I didn't have to get up early. The bad news is I have 3 hard classes on Mon and wed. then again, I get 2 very essay days. So I'm hoping that this won't be such a bad schedule.

Here's what i got
M
Intermediate Algebra 11:00am - 11:50am
United States History 1:00pm - 2:20pm
English Composition 3:00pm - 4:50pm

T
Intermediate Algebra 11:30am - 12:50pm

W
Intermediate Algebra 11:00am - 11:50am
United States History 1:00pm - 2:20pm
English Composition 3:00pm - 4:50pm

Thur
Intermediate Algebra 11:30am - 12:50pm

F
Begining Photography 9:00am - 1:50pm

2003-07-27T16:27:00.000-07:00

Look! it's my Mural!!!

2003-07-27T16:26:00.000-07:00

It's been very quite at night, dare I say silent.
I think that mocking bird finally shut up.
You have no idea how nice it is to fall asleep without worrying I'll be woken up.

I saw the Producers on Tuesday, and I took the girls out to lunch and gave them there b-day gifts. I haven't been working much the past few weeks. I have more free time, but a lot less money.
I haven't been up to anything particular exciting. I've seen pirates of the Caribbean twice. Then I saw Tomb Raider last night with Ivan and Tracy. That was fun. I made them listen to J-pop on the way home. Muahahaha! I even showed them the Animartix.

I put Sweet Things on temporay hiatus.
Lets just say I'm rethinking things a little.
Right now I'm extremely tempted to start over,
and make it better. But every time I do that to a project of mine it never gets finished.
Because unfortunately, since I had no idea what I was doing when I started ST, the plot line has evolved considerably. Things I had done in the past aren't really necessary anymore. I also feel I could make older scenes better. But no matter how I try, I'm still not at the level of skill I want to be at. So right now I'm pondering, just pondering.

2003-07-16T00:20:00.000-07:00

oh, I thought I would mention I finally finished Angel Sanctuary. 20 volumes of messed up angels trying to kill everyone. Good stuff. The ending was what I had expected. Kinda ironic after all they went though nothing really changes. But all the characters is what makes the story enjoyable. All of them made the progression that was necessary for the story. Plus the art is so freaken cool. That's why I'm painting a mural of Setsuna on my wall.
No joke. Its gunna kick butt when it's done.

Now I need to finish Beck and Love Mode.
And Obsession translated another Remix. Full of tatshua goodness. He's such an evil lovable character. Somehow I think he would make a great Character on QAF. He would so be after Brain.

A yes, online manga makes Rio happy!

Only 3 more epsiodes of Utena to go. Now i understand why Lynn loves it so much! It's soooooo messed up!

2003-07-15T23:37:00.000-07:00

New Wheebl and bob

http://www.weebl.jolt.co.uk/hentai.htm

If you know a lot about anime, then you will find this one particularly funny.
I wonder how many people actully get the tenitcal joke.

2003-07-15T21:35:00.000-07:00

Things are getting intresting at Hallmark. There is some big time drama going on right now. I wonder how it's all going to play out. Which reminds me, i need to go buy brithday cards. I think I'll do that tomarrow, put my 30% dicount to use.

ehe, it feel like ST is going though one if it's down periods. Some of the stuff I put up are just bad quality. I think what it comes down to is I suck at writing I think the thing that is the most difficult thing for me to do is put down what is in my head onto paper. I was thinking ST story line has driven off it's original course. Though I think it's a better course. I think it's just taking me to long to do pages. I should speed my work pace so I can keep the flow of the story but guess what, I'm to lazy. It's my comic and I'm going to let it wonder off on it's own course. It's not like I'm trying to impress anyone, it's my own learning experience.

2003-07-12T01:14:00.000-07:00

You know when it comes down to it, I'm not to in touch with reality.

I'm not sure why, but my brain works that way. It's been that way most of my life. I'm always off in an another world. Or I suspect it started after my dad died. I've been thinking about him lately, and how his absence may have affected me more than I think. I mean, I feel like I'm normal. But I know my brain dose not work the same way as most people. I'm scared of really stupid things. Basically anything I haven't experienced before. This is including starting college.

I'm just kinda lost. For the first time no one is really pointing out my path, telling me what I should do. I guess at this age they expect me to figure it out on my own, and on top of that make the best decision possible. My problem is I've never been very good at that. Because like I said, I'm not very in touch with reality. But at the same time there seems to be the 'right' path. And somehow out all the other infinite paths I'm supposed to find the right one. But what is right for me? I don't even think I know. Sometimes I think life is simpler when people tell me what to do.

What a free thinker I am...heh.

Maybe I'm just confused.

And on top of that, Mom getting on my case. It's making me upset, and nervous suddenly there is that pressure that wasn't there before.

2003-07-11T12:57:00.000-07:00

Damn, I've been sleeping to much. Maybe it's because I'm working, or just that I'm a lazy ass.

Hallmark has been really nice, until 2 day ago when they made me to one of the worst job on the planet.... TELEMARKETING! Eep, you see our ornament premier is this Saturday and we have to let 50 thousand people know, and who most likely don't give a crap in the first place. I feel all dirty now.

And yes, I agree, why sell Christmas ornaments in July. This just give you an idea how much Hallmark want to make money.

2003-07-08T00:43:00.000-07:00

some better news...

"Newline Studios’ work on dubbing Gravitation is set to conclude within a month, and release is expected starting in the spring of 2004. According to the representative, the delay between initial announcement of the title and release has been primarily due to the difficulties of securing music rights."

it's about fricken time, I've only been waiting for 2 years!!! =P

2003-07-08T00:40:00.000-07:00

rantage....
I just finished episode 18 of kare kano on the 4th DVD and to my horror discovered that one of the best parts had been edited out. Yes, part of the very non-graphic, but suggestive love scene I was so angry I tried looking up information to see why they had done that...
apparently it wasn't the American company who had made the edits, but the Japanese one had sent them the TV edit. I feel very gypped!!!
I'm just glad i wasn't the only one who had strong feelings about it being cut.

2003-07-04T23:21:00.000-07:00

Today, just felt weird. like I wasn't really alive. My mind was off into space the whole day. Just day dreaming as usual. I'm always directing in my head, the way things should look and feel. keeps me entertained. But all day I was just imagining what it would be like if I had the upper hand on fate. How could I direct my life. And what it would be like if I was more in control over my destiny. It makes me feel like I can't afford to sit around and wait any longer. Opportunities can slip by so fast.

Or maybe just watching 'Hed Wig' messed up my mind.

I hope everyone had a happy 4th.

2003-07-04T00:53:00.000-07:00

lifes a bitch sometimes.

tonight is one of those times....

damn..i wish i could go to expo

2003-07-03T23:57:00.000-07:00

you know what suck? when i'm looking though scanilation sites and i find this really cute looking yaoi manga, and it's in german! Grrrrr....And lest i can look at he pritty pictures. mmmm....Bishounen.

I showed Nathan and Tyler some Ranma 1/2 episodes. Good stuff to watch. To me it's an anime almost anyone can enjoy. it's just so damn funny. Oh and Nathan and Tyler brought us coke and cake. Cake = Love.

Tommarow is the 4th....and the start of the Expo...I wonder if Tyson eneded up going? I haven't herd from anyone, so as usual I'm in the dark.

2003-07-01T10:19:00.000-07:00

so whats life been like lately? A lot Of working.
Today is my first day off since i started at Hallmark. I'ts a nice job and I'm getting the hang of it. i'm not so tired anymore. But tis' nice to have the day off.

I made a sad decision a week ago. Since Expo is in 4 days and I still haven't made any plans. I'm not going to go. I'm trying not to think about it actually. It makes me sad, but I just couldn't get it together this year. it wasn't practical. I'm not the kind of person who knows how to organize these things. And now that I'm working too. I didn't want to ask for days off in the first week of me working there. right now I think we are over staffed, though no one has really said anything about it. For the last 3 days we have been standing or our heals counting cards, because we have nothing to do. I hope he doesn't decided to fire anyone. Anyway, for anyone who is going to expo have a wonderful time for me!

Next year, if i want to, I'm going for all 4 days. Beacuse by then all my firends will be 18, and I'll be 19. Well have more freedom in general and our parents won't stop us. And maybe Angel can even help driveing people if we go in a large group.

SHE GOT HER OWN NEW CAR! YATTA!

2003-06-29T04:10:00.000-07:00

i just don't knoow what to do. I give up. I can't win.
I'ts now 3;59 in the morening. I can't sleep beacuse of that goddamn brid is chriping.
I'ts been like this for the past few mouths. I'ts driveing me crazy. I can't sleep. I need sleep bad. I just want to breck down and cry. You have no idea how frustrted i feel. All i want is some quite. I want my little quite steet back. i'ts not fucking funny anymore. I need to kill this brid. Or brids, as i've discoverd there is more than one now. I just cant stand it anymore.
I've never hated something so much in my life. if i hand the chnace i would not hesitate to kill this thing with my own two hands.

2003-06-27T17:44:00.000-07:00

I am starting to feel a little but like myself again.
2 days of working 6 hours each has left me drained. It's nothing that bad, but to a lazy ass like me, it feels like a lot of fucking work. And for the most part it is. I started on Wed and I've worked from about 2;30 till 9. I was so happy he let me out early today. I guess he didn't need the extra person. Fine by me.

So how am I holding out at Hallmark. Well, my feet and legs are killing me. But I took some pain killers so I feel better. I'm just mental and physically tired. But I drank a coke and I'm starting to feel alive again. For the most part I like working at Hallmark. The people I work with are really nice. And the people who shop there aren't to bad either, with a few problems.

The hardest part so far, is just trying to stay awake, learning the register and knowing where everything is.

So that's my life right now. Work, work, work.

2003-06-24T22:11:00.000-07:00

Aaaaaaaaaahhh....

I got a job!
It was stange i sent out applications to a bunch of places and i was starting to give up hope when the two places that i wanted to work gave me a call today. I did both interviews. One for Hallmark and the other for Color Me Mine. I've decied i'm going to stick with Hallmark. I don't think I can handel wokring with all the little kids, or the parents for that matter. Victora works at Hallmark and she seems like she dosne't hate it.

So I start tomarow ot 3:30 and I'll work though 9:00. It's kinda scray, but I'm glad i got the job. At lest I'll have something to do and some extra money,

2003-06-23T18:53:00.000-07:00

Home Star Runner
Share the love!

seriously....

2003-06-21T23:43:00.000-07:00

Well, I managed to get out of the house today. I turned in two applications. One to Hallmark and the other too the movie theater. Right now I'm crossing my fingers for Hallmark. Victoria put in a good word for me. I just hope my resume doesn't look to bad. I'm not very good at that kind of thing. But I think I might be able to handle a job there pretty well.
We shall see...

and

Poor Dana! Her Mom got appendicitis! Shes' still in the hospital recovering.
Well, if I was Dana I would be freaking out. I mean if anything had happened to my Mom I don't know what I would do. I hope she gets better soon!

2003-06-20T20:26:00.000-07:00

return to angst

ah, yes sitting around at home on a Friday night. Doesn't this feel familiar? I guess since school let out things have returned to normal. I really do need a job. to keep me busy. What did I actually think I had much of a social life?

Well, I did go to 3rd street with the girls and I even brought Nathan along. I had a good time. But you can only go to the mall by yourself and eat pizza alone at oak canyon park so many times till it gets boring.

And so here it comes, the dreaded and inevitable loss of contact with many of my high school friends. At with lest the one's I was starting to get to know. I wasn't really apart of their group, so I feel silly trying to wriggle my way in there. I'm sure if any of them cared, at least one would give me a call. I'm not even sure if I have Matt's cell phone number anymore. now that distressing.

And it's summer, where in the fuck is my sun?

2003-06-19T12:39:00.000-07:00

oh yes, it's summer and job hunting. Well, sorta. lets just say I'm doing a half assed job of it. My Mom really want me to get a job so she doesn't have to fork out gas money and allowance. I don't blame her. It s just I'm a lazy ass. and I don't want to work.

I picked up an application to Color Me mine. Thats the only place where I want to work. I think that would be enjoyable for me. The big problem is I don't have any work experience.

2003-06-15T21:50:00.000-07:00

Mom' s car show was today. I helped sell raffle tickets with Shatter Star and Angel.
It was hot out, but it was fun. At lest I have something to do on fathers day. It's not a holiday I think about much anymore.

Oh the big news, I have very good karma on Friday the 13th.
First off I went to the post office to pick up a package form my Grand Sara. She lives in Nebraska. We maybe see ecch other once every 7 years. Anway so i open up this pakage, and I'm expecting like a little teddy bear and a 25 dollar cheek. Because that's the kind if stuff I've been getting all week. In the box was a jewelry box. In is was an opal and a diamond necklace. And that's not even the best part. There is also is a really thick envelop, in it a shit load of Saving bonds. You know the kind you get from the government. When we added it all up I fell out of my chair. their was about 17 thousand dollars worth.

How do you write a fucking thank you letter for that amount of money!?
Shit, even though I have to wait ten years to collect it all..that a lot!!
I'm still in shock about it.

Then we go home and my aunt Debbie, art, and my Mom give me the digital camera I've always wanted.

What a lucky day.

2003-06-12T12:40:00.000-07:00

AAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!

Graduation!
So now it's *officaly* over!
I got how from grade night around 6 so I'm living on about 7 hours of sleep. Which isn't bad?
It's just hard to sleep when it's light out you know?
Well, the Porters and my uncle Mitch and Aunt Carla came down for my graduation. I was really pleased I didn't think I would have cared, but seeing them there really made me happy. Then they shoved us on the Bus for Grad Night. I think that when I might have been able to enjoy myself the most. We sang really random songs the whole way. Even Yatta. We ended up going to the Henry Fonda theater, which I had never herd of. They rented the whole place and filled it with games and activities. We stayed there for 6 hours. I hung around various people warding of sleepiness. I had a good time. But I don't think the reality of things have sunk in yet. A lot of those people I might never see again.

Oh! and i won a new mini cd-player and In-and-out money!

Good times.

2003-06-10T20:19:00.000-07:00

it's over. I can't believe it's finally over.
Tomorrow I graduate.
No more High School. Not ever again.
It's fucking unbelievable.
My family has been sending me mail all week, some even have cheeks in them.
It feel like I've been climbing up this big hill for four years and I finally reached the top.
The question now stands, where do I go from here? Actually, more like, how do I get there. One thing I've learned you never know whets going to come your way until it's over.

2003-06-08T21:10:00.000-07:00

ok,ok, so now i think i get whats with this new clamp manga...It's not onlt Card Captor Sakura they are useing in an UA, it's almost eveything that clamp has invented.
I was getting confused when i saw Chi and thay little dued form Magic Earth Raynight. Now, that i think about it, it might be kinda insteting.

2003-06-08T20:43:00.000-07:00

Yay tomorrow is my last day of school! and I'm leaving early i don't care what my Spanish teacher says. =p

I just need to make sure I get everyone to sing my year
book! I'm going to miss animation class the most. I like hanging out with the guys. =0)

Also, today I bought a new wallet and FINALLY bought the Mega Tokyo Graphic Novel. Its sooooo cute. I'm gunna bring it to school tomorrow.

Oh, and ST is updated today. YAY! that only took five weeks.

2003-06-05T20:03:00.000-07:00

School is so close to being over it's scary!

Hhhhhhhhheeerrreees' Prom!

Pictures!!!

I went to Prom last weekend. Who would have thought? I had a really great time thanks to my date, Nathan. All my friends went too so that was nice to see everyone all dressed up. I spent about 3 hours getting ready, which I think isn't to bad. The part that took the longest was my hair. My hairdresser put it up in a ponytail then made it into curls. My hair was held up by 16 pins and a shit load of hair spry. it looked really nice. Two of my friends failed to recognize me when I first saw them. =0)
We got to ride in an overcrowded limo, pose for tons of pictures, and dance to rap music all night. That was actually the one part that bothered me. I mean rap is fun to dance to some of the time. but that was practically all they played. What happened to go old rocken-roll or even some swing dancing? Well, anyway, it will be a night that I will be able to think back on fondly. And that's all that matters.

It's Strange, about a mouth ago High school started looking up for me, finally. Now I'm kinda sad it's going to be over just as I'm starting to enjoy being with all my friends. At least I can say senior year wasn't a total waste.

Now if only I can I pass my Spanish final and I will be al set to go!

2003-05-30T19:16:00.000-07:00

Today was a good day, though I'm practically climbing the walls. I wish school was over. I have lost all my work ethic. I got a D+ on my last Spanish test, yet I don't give a crap. What really sucks is that my Spanish teacher is making me take the final over 2 zero periods. That means I have to get up my six to be to school at seven o'clock. I'm not even sure my brain works that early in the morning.

Today was senior award assembly. After sitting though that for about 3 years, it was finally our turn. I was really happy that I got the Art department award. I know it sounds silly, but academically specking I'm not very important. Art is the only thing that allows me to stand out. But my friends got a lot of awards too. Nathan, Anthony form Computer related stuff. And Ryan won one for English. ^__^ It was pretty cool to stand up on stage with my friends. And the best part was all the underclassmen had to sit and watch while they where bord to tears. It's good to be a senior.

And even more exciting tomorrow is Prom. =0D I already got my nails done up nice, and tomorrow I'm going to get my hair put up. Fun, fun.
all thses things to do, and I'm still way behind on updateing Sweet Things.

2003-05-23T17:34:00.000-07:00

And the latest Anime Gossip right now is Clamp appears to be continuing their beloved Card Captor Sakura. Correction, they seem to be reusing their characters from CCS. Actually it kinda bothers me when people put their character in AU. Um, well all I have to say is...Toya and Yukito better get it on or something. Clamp is evil when they tease me like that.

2003-05-23T17:24:00.000-07:00

you know you have become bord and pathetic, when you start playing with you rolled neopets again.

sinks to a new low

On Tuesday I came home and took almost everything off my walls. I have a lot of stuff on my walls too. My room is cover in nothing but posters and pictures and art, and I took it all down. I don't really know why I was compelled to do such a thing. My Mom got really worried when she saw my walls empty and my floor cover with all the crap that used to be on my walls. I guess it was time for a change.

Since then I put a lot of my stuff back up, but I have one wall that is empty. I deiced I'm going to start another mural there. I'm not exactly sure what it's going to be. But I think I narrowed it down to something form Angel Sanctuary because I love the style and the art so much. I think it might be cool and have Setsuna on my wall ^__^

I'll update my progress as it continues.

2003-05-18T08:55:00.000-07:00

Angel's and Shatter Star's Prom was last night. I'm really dying to know how it went. but I'll have to wait until I get back from my movie date with my aunt Carla. We are going to see Down With Love.

Oh, the Matrix was Awsomeitated. I saw it with Ivan on Thursday. Special effects and the fight scenes where incredible. I don't think it outdid the first one, but it certainly matched it.

2003-05-14T21:17:00.000-07:00

I'm finished with AP art. Yatta! I actually finished it last week, I just didn't feel like posting that until now.

As it turns out Matt and I are not going to Prom together. It's a sad story, but I'm glad I made that decision it would have been, well not the same. Our friendship has been different since he started independent study and I just didn't want to wait around for him anymore. But do I have a date. My friend Nathan is going with me. ^__^
Ivan also also offered to go with me. He's so sweet. He's one of my only friends who has seem to stick by me all theses years. We are going to see Matrix tomorrow!
It's gunna be fun.

I want to start working on my senior memoire album. I'm doing to more for myself, then the actual grade. cause I don't think it would help much anyway. My blog entries are going to be very helpful!!!

2003-05-08T15:38:00.000-07:00

2003-05-05T22:25:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow I'm going to be kicking myself in the ass for not doing my English HW.
But that still doesn't change the fact that I'm happy that I didn't do it. It's not like I even understood the dam thing in the first place. How did I become such an under achiever so quickly it must be some kind of record.

Short summary of this weekend:

1) Bought my Prom Dress. Really nice looking. I hope it holds up to what everyone else will be wearing.
2) Bought Spirited Away. Watched it twice.
3) Saw X-men 2. I loved it so much. Night Crawler was so cute! ;0) OK, I know I'm weird. I got to see it again.
4) I got rear-ended by some guy in the rain on Friday. It didn't dent my car but it managed to give me a good sized scratch and spill fruit drink all over the font seat. neither which will ever come out. =0(
5) Started watching second season of Queer As Folk. Only I can watch a show backwards and still enjoy it. Brian is identical in personality to Yuki Eiri. I think I'm in Love.

2003-05-01T14:36:00.000-07:00

Senior beach day turned out to be a lot of fun. Way more than I had expected. First of all it wasn't as cold as I thought it was going to be. It was Hazy and it wasn't too chilly. We went down to Zumma and like always their was a crew of people fliming something. I didn't go in the water, nor did I ever plan to. Though Nathan tired his luck by trying to carry me in. I didn't work. Heheh. I spent most of my time building a sand sculpture of a Seal, which everyone seemed to like. Even the teachers seemed impressed. I had a lot of people work on it with me, so it was fun. I didn't have anything to eat and now I'm hungry and I know I'm going to be sour tomorrow morning.

I can't bleive they expect us to do work next week. are they nuts?

2003-04-26T22:45:00.000-07:00

The thought just kinda set in just now. Spring break is almost over. The only thing that is keeping me form complete depression is Senior week. I hope it's fun, mostly because I need something to keep me going. I'm tired of this "I can't stand school" shit. It doesn't make life any easier to hate what you have to do on weekdays.

Anyway, was it an eventful spring break? Not to bad. I managed to get out of the house a bit. I visited collages, and today I even went to the Farmers Market with Debbie. Much fun! I also had the girls spend the night, which is always fun. =0) we watched Ranma 1/2 and talked about really random stuff. I haven't seen Julia or Matt in a long time. I really need to give her her present and ask how her party was.

I actually bought a J-pop CD. =0D PuffyAmiYumi is the name of the band. Very cute stuff. I can't understand why I like J-pop so much lately. I guess because the stuff I like is so unnaturally happy, it makes me feel good. I dare you to listen to Judy and Marry's Sobakasu and feel sad. That was the first J-pop song i ever liked and it's still one of my favs. All of my other CD's seem so blah. I really wish I could learn the language. I have a vague hope that I could be good at it. then I look at my Spanish grade and cringe. Language is not easy for me to learn. I wish I could. maybe I will someday. But for now I'll just enjoy listing to it.

Specking of Spanish I actually have HW I need to do, Crap. I even have a TEST the day I get back. To bad I can't change to way I feel about school. life would be much easier.

2003-04-23T10:01:00.000-07:00

A wonderful new sketch blog it has to of my fav online artisits. Both of them who also draw web comics. I hate them, but i love them at the same time. Take a look the art is really great!!!

2003-04-22T18:29:00.000-07:00

I went to visit some collages today with Ivan. I know that's something you normally do in your junior year, but better late than never. Basically I going to be stuck in endless school before I get to anything that i REALLY want to do. Which is to be an animator. But for the first time in my life, I have this desire to really learn an aspire, to craft potential into talent. I long for it. Something where i can shine.

Such a crazy dream of mine. I have such a long way to go. But their is no question in my mind thant animattion is what i really want to do. But it's not going to be eassy by any means. Why couldn't I have picked an easier career???

2003-04-20T23:06:00.000-07:00

Today I had Easter Dinner over my Aunt Jill's house. Normally we have Easter at my house, but since the Band is staying over we needed more room.
Porcelain is the name of the band. I wrote about them once before, they really are a nice bunch of people. I hope they do well. But the best part about dinner was I had some people more my age group around. I mean, even though they are all over 21, I am the youngest in my family so I'm always forced to listen to depressing adult conversation. And my cousins never seem to talk to me. I chatted more with the band than any of them. I'ts kinda sad, I guess. Bu the band kept things more lively and fresh. It was a nice change.

What was really cool was after dinner they set up and played for us. Though they played unplugged, because the neighbors would have had a filed day. They where really good! One gril plays a violin! It sucks that I can't see them play live because all the clubs they play at are 21 and over. =0P
Well, if they can stick around for a few more years that won't be a problem.

2003-04-19T22:55:00.000-07:00

new layout, it's blue and shiny and apropreate for spring.
Falalaalal.

2003-04-19T09:23:00.000-07:00

Spring break is here! Wahoo!

Yesterday, to commemorate the first official day of SB, I went to the Mall with Angel and Shatter Star. And as I was planning to, I spent way to much money! Muahaha! I went to the anime cart and they had Chobits 5, so I picked that up. And I thought it was about time I bought Kare Kano #3 DVD. Good stuff like always.
Me and the girls started thinking back in the days where was relativity little manga to choses from. Angel started on Mars and I started collecting Chobits and X shortly after. but their wasn't much else. Not the place is over flowing with stuff to chose from. There is almost too much selection now. At lest according to my wallet. I could seriously go broke buying manga. I never imagined Tokyo Pop would ever make manag this available. It really cool actually. but at the same time I can't buy anything new because I'm already collecting 5 series, X/1999 (which is twice as expense than most manga should be), Mars, Chobits, and sooner or later Fake and Gravitation. So much manga, so little cash.

The after we went to the cart, instead of buying new sunglasses I ended up buying a really cut outfit at Hot Topic. ^___^ I can't wait to wear it. It's a pleated skirt with pink plad on the of the pleats. Then I got this cute Hello Kitty T-shirt to match.

2003-04-15T22:25:00.000-07:00

A bunch of random thoughts.

Well, I think I've taken a liking to Guster.
I'm not sure what possessed me to finally listening to some of their Mp3's. but I like them enough to buy their CD.

I'm considering spending some serious cash this weekend. New sunglasses, CDs' anime, the whole nine yards. I've been saving stuff, up, I just feel like I should spend a little of it.

I finished Read or Die. I liked it a lot. It was a little different from what I usually watch. It almost had a FLCL edge to it, at least animation wise. And I always love nice animation. So I might even buy it when it comes out on DVD.

I'm also getting excited for Gravi and Fake manag to come out. Though I'm not sure if Adrian, has, any room for new manga on the cart. I hope i don't have to oder anything form him special. I might as well put a large label on my forehead that says "yaoi freak." Oh well. I mean it's getting kind of crowded on the selfs it would be really cool if he got a real store in the mall. *Meep* I would love to work their. Only problem is their about 20 other people in line with me. eheh. You know what else kinda ticks me off? Animate, the really cool anime store on Melrose closed a while back. They promised they would re-open, they actaully have seemed to have disaperded. Their website isn't even up anymore. Thats not a good thing. That was the only place i knew that sold Remixs. Somehow i don't see myslef fishing around looking for yaoi at the Expo. =0P

eeep, speaking of the Expo, i really need to start makeing arangements. Crap, why is it up to me? They should know I'm incapble of arangeing this kind of thing. i don't have a clue what I'm doing. I guess it will be an assigment this breack.

The art assembly was today. I always enjoy it because ti one of the only things I feel like I can take part in at my school. Fine art doesn't get much attention. It also struck me, that this will be the last art assembly I'll ever go too. =0(
I'm going to mis Mis. Jackson when I leave. I have had her every years for the last four years. She the only teacher who really knows me for what I am.

I watched some more Utena, and now I'm really confused. Even Lynne couldn't explain it to me. Looks like I'll just have to watch it again.

2003-04-14T19:33:00.000-07:00

*meep*

I haven't blogged in a bit, that's so unlike me!

Lets see what's new besides me hating high school and struggling with Spanish.

Oh, we adopted a new dog into our family. Since my aunts neighbor is sick with cancer she can't take care of her dog anymore. So we took her dog in. =0)
His name is Boris and he is really is kawaii. He's an 7 year-old yorky. He's slow moving, easy tempered. Natasha, my other dog, seems to be adjusting fairly well to her new roomie, but is still settling in to our routine. What's really freaky about all this is we end up with an interesting pair of names? Boris and Natasha. It kinda freaked me out, like it had been destiny or something.

I've been putting around with FTP a lot lately. I've been trying to spruce up the layout a bit more.

I finished all the Mirage of Blaze on Kazaa, only up to episode 7. I think it actually worth buying when it comes out. I really want to find out what happens between the two main bishounen. I know there is just some big dark secret waiting to emerge. muahaha!

AP testing is coming up soon. I forgot to buy slide film. :: bangs head on desk:::: oops. I'm not on task at all this week. Especially with HW and all that. But for once in a long time I'm doing my art HW on time. =0)

It's so colse to spring break it not even funny.

2003-04-06T23:27:00.000-07:00

I feel a lot better today. Actually I started feeling better on Saturday. I had a few nasty stress dreams on Friday night, but they seem to be gone now. I saw Dana perform in a one act play at Agoura. She did a great job. I got to thinking I'm going to miss seeing her in school plays when we get into collage. They are a lot of fun.

I got my report card on Saturday. I wasn't as bad as I expected it to be. Looks like I managed to bring up my Spanish grade to a C-. I think the T major panic attack might have actually made a difference after all. Either way, I plan to keep my grade up. I have sold my sole to 7th period.

There was some other delightful news today. I submitted some of my works into a senior art show and I actually won second place in the photography section. I even got a 150 cash prize. Pretty sweet, ne? It's going into my savings for a rainy day.

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On a completely unrelated topic, I'm still a big digimon fan. Yes, it's a guilty pleasure of mine. =0P I was watching Digimon Adventure Movie 4- Diablomon Strikes (fan subbed) and I now am convinced that Sora is the most manipulative an evil of all anime characters oh sure, she acts all sweet and innocent. But don't be fooled she is a such player! I mean, the whole entire shows hints at nothing but Taiora (tai x sora) yet they end up with Yamora ( yama x sora). It just makes me mad and confused! Angel agrees with me. Um, but I won't go into a rant now, it's late. And of course I realized Digimon is 10 times better dubbed. Yama has such a sexy voice.
:::shigh:::
Digimon was really the beginning of the end for me.
good memories!

2003-04-03T19:50:00.000-08:00

Well, I can't seem to get out of this depressed funk of mine. it comes and it gose, but today it really hit me, that I'm sad. Trival things like the list i made i can only keep me happy for so long.
The truth is I just kinda feel alone. It's not that I don't have any friends at school, its just that everyone who I have had a special connection with seems so far away. None of my relation ship with my friends feel quite the same anymore. Some have changed for the good, other I fear for the worse. I'm to shy to try and squeeze myself into another click, and to tried.
Senior year was going to be enjoyable. While it hasn't been completely unbearable, it's defiantly gone down hill.

I really miss the way things used to be.

2003-04-02T22:18:00.000-08:00

well, i was wrong.
There still is noise, just not as much.

oh joy -__-

ok AOL, i think it's time to kick you out the door right now.

2003-04-02T16:18:00.000-08:00

well, AOL sent me another modem, and it looks as if that noise problem is gone. Which I am very happy about. But their is still another problem that needs to be fixed. It never ends! Anytime someone makes or receives I call, I get bumped off. I think this really sucks because the whole point of DSL is not having to need another phone line. I'm going to have to brain storm on this again. But right now I'm happy at lest one problem is a lest fixed.

2003-04-01T21:49:00.000-08:00

I'm starting to hope this mild depression is starting to lift, well at lest some of the circumstances which created it.

Things that have made Rio feel better

1) I found out I got a C on my last Spanish quiz, which made me feel not so stupid.
2) I also got my new scanner, so I can start updating ST when I have some free time.
3) I got a new chair in my office. It's nice and comfy now I can throw out my 6 year old bean bag.
4) I finally got to watch up to episode 5 of Mirage of blaze. Seki dose one of the voices, he plays the blond sexy bishie. ::::swoons::::
5) I completed my art homework for the first time in weeks so I'm feeling more accomplished.
6) Had ten extra min's added on to lunch today. I went to Mc Donald's with Lynn.
7) Obession has translated a new remix. The one with Tat and Ryu. That made me REALLY happy. ;0) Tat is definitely a sadist. LOL
8) updated FTP with my new art works.
9) Watched the newst epsiode of Queer As Foke on Sunday.

Yeah, so even if it's not close to Friday, this week hasn't started out so bad. And I'll take what I can get, ya know?

2003-04-01T17:47:00.000-08:00

Oooooo.. I love miho form Mega Tokyo. She's so cool looking, such a goth, and she has purple hair. =0)
which is why i must buy this poster when its out. This makes my Capture the B34R post look crummy.
ssoo coool....
In fact i still need to buy the MT vol one. What kind of fan am I????

2003-03-29T13:03:00.000-08:00

I found a new anime that look intresting, its called
Mirrage Of Blaze.
So far I've only seen 2 episodes that I downloaded off of Kazaa. It seems pritty intresting do far, but the best part about it so far is the bishounen, and the promis of some shounen ai, or so I've read. =0D

2003-03-25T21:11:00.000-08:00

Oh, I forgot to mention, I'm so happy Sprited Away won this year at the oscars!!! Though I have to say I was rather torn beteen Lilo and Stich
Maybe this will teach Disney to do a better job. They have been in the crapper lately.
I swear, people who make animated movies these days don't seem to realise they need a PLOT for their movies to work. I mean, look at Pixar, the reason they do well is beacuse their is some actuall story telling invloved.

2003-03-25T20:59:00.000-08:00

This week been crappy, and It's only Tuesday. I just can't wait to see how much further down hill I can slide. As you can tell I've not been very optimistic as of late. I have 2 test this week. I'm going to do well on either of them because they are both important and really difficult. Well, at least I don't have to worry about failing Government. It's Spanish I really have to study for.

And I have to sit though an another painful English class tomorrow.

Crap, when will vacation be here?

On the bright side, I have watched some episodes of Utena. I swear if I didn't have anime to watch I'd probably be suicidal. I'm at episode 12 right now. It just got really 'good.' I mean 'good' as in 'totally tragic with lots of agist and all the other shoujo themes I eat up with a spoon.'

I need to get working on St again, I didn't update because of the lack of scanner, but that doesn't mean I should slack off! Dam you school for getting in the way!

2003-03-24T14:48:00.000-08:00

I'm still worried about my Spanish grade, but what I've discovered is sometimes things need to get this bad in order to motivate me to work harder. It's sad, but it's true.

I'm fairly confident I can get it back to a C. Well let me put it this way, I really don't have a choice. I've been suck a slacker in all my classes including art. Gad, I always need a huge kick in the ass to get me motivated.

2003-03-21T23:40:00.000-08:00

Today was one of the biggest fucking upsets of my life.
I mean I've been struggling with Spanish II since the begging but this takes the cake.
For all this time I've put in my usual effort and have passed with C's or higher. And I'm fine with that. But lately my grade has been going down hill. I managed to hind my progress report from my Mom in hopes I could raise my grade back to a C again. In theory it wouldn't have been so hard.

I'm just really fucking stupid sometimes.

I failed 3 times on the same test on a subject I actually seem to understand, conceptually anyway. I guess that my whole problem in learning Spanish, its not just about learning concepts, but memorizing rules and applying them. That is a very difficult task for me to manage because of my learning disability. So it gets frustrating when I understand something and I still can't seem to get it right.

This month I had at least one opportunity to raise my grade, but due to something so painfully idiotic, (I did my current event on the wrong country) he's counting it as a zero. It fucking broke my heart, I almost cried in class today. Then after class he tells me I got a D+ on my last test. Once again I thought I had a pretty good grasp of the concepts we are learning, but I just can't seem to see all the details. He recommend I show up to 7th period for extra help. But I don't think it will do anything cuase i UNDERSTAND what we are learning, it just my brain doesn't work in a sight line. And no matter how much time I try to memoires things all the "a" and the "o"'s and the "e"s just mix together. I make really stupid mistakes.

After class I did cry. And now I'm fucking mad at him for counting my Current event as a zero even though I did all the work. I just need one Fucking B to give me some hope of passing this fucking class.

I feel worthless and stupid. I hate feeling that way beacuse i know it's not ture. But thats what sitting in that class makes me feel like. Its horrible. And this motives me to even try less, beacuse the more I try the more upset i get when i don't do well. I kinda wish i could tell this to my teacher. He would probaly think I'm just makeing this up and I'm not giveing my full effort.

god, sometimes i hate my brain.

2003-03-19T22:45:00.000-08:00

I took a little vacation form school today. I felt sick this morning and the thought of sitting through class nauseated to not appeal to me. So I stayed home.

Today also happened to be the day that my Mom got a techie to come over and work on our computer problem. Since we got DSL we have had this terrible noise on our phone. I mean you can barely hear the other person. By the end of the day he fixed a bunch of problems we had with our computers, but was unable to fix the noise problem. Which sucks because now we have to call the phone company in and they might have to fix a weird line or something.

Anyway, we ended up spending a shit load of money, but it was all on stuff we needed. We got a network card, a wireless router, a new printer (I really needed a new one), a new scanner, windows XP for my Mom computer and networked our printers together.

Anyway, Rio is very happy because she now has new toys to play with. Muahaha! this should make comicing a lot simpler.

But damit, I have to go to school tomorrow!!!!

2003-03-17T18:18:00.000-08:00

I'm still testing out this new layout

2003-03-17T17:49:00.000-08:00

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2003-03-17T17:42:00.000-08:00

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2003-03-17T16:49:00.000-08:00

.bloggen about the busy weekend.....

Went to comedy Sporzt, where we got our ass kicked by Agoura. Our team just didn't have their typical energy. After that Julia and I met up with John and hung out at Matt's house. Now I say this with as much love as possible, but my friends are really entertaining when they are under the influence. I did not join them.
I got home at around 2:30 and I'm glad I did. My Mom was OK with it, but she was glad I came home when I did.

Then on Sat was Monty Carlo night. I took Lynn with me. I dressed up in my cute outfit and everyone seemed to like it. But I couldn't' help but notice a lot of the underclassmen girls where dressed REALLY sluty. It was kinda disturbing. By far the best costumes at the whole dance where a bunch of seniors who dressed up as the Fellowship of the Ring . My heroes!!! ;0D
There was some gambling at the dance, Black Jack, and some others. I wasn't much interested in the games, cause I can't add in my head fast enough. I enjoyed dancing a lot more. But I only ended up danceing a little in the first half and then a lot towards the end. I probably looked like a freak when I started head banging when they played Queen's Bohemian rhapsody, but it was fun! I ended up going straight home after the dance. It was probably a good idea in the long run considering I got home so late the night before.

wow, dose this mean i have a social life now?

2003-03-14T17:50:00.000-08:00

Yatta!

::listening to Yatta for the 7th time::::::

I know I say this every Friday, but thank Fucking GOD it's Friday!
Besides the fact I got my computer fixed it's been a tuff week. I would have been down right unbearable if I hadn't had the Internet to unwind.

I'm trying to Down load more Utena, but kazaa is being kinda crummy to me. I could down load an ep. of Lain in less than 2 hours. This seems to b taking longer than it should. =0(
But I decided it was time to actually have something to do this weekend, besides staring at my computer screen, I mean. So after Comedy Sportz, I'll be going over to Matt's for a very small gathering, dare I say party. Well, watch some moves and hang out......

Monty Carlo night is on Sat, and I'm going. =0) It should be fun, cause I get to dress up. I was going to dress up all in purple, but I decided not to. So, I'm gunna wear my black skirt and my school girl stockings. I'm gunna look *Kawaii*

or I hope, at least.

2003-03-13T19:52:00.000-08:00

Man, everywhere I go, everyone is bitching about the war.
I'm kinda getting sick of it actually. I'm not very politically minded, so I'm not good at arguing points either way. I'm just can't believe so many people around me are being divided. It kinda acres me actually, because instead of using augments based on facts many of them result to insulting each other.

But I do admit I don't get the whole french fri thing. they wernt really french to begin with.

:::shruggs:::

I think I'm just going to listen to some J-pop mp3's and shut up.

2003-03-11T21:17:00.000-08:00

Well, my comp is almost in complete working order. I even wokred on color ST tonight. I'll finsih it tomarrow. Windows 2000 is pretty nice so far.

Well, I had to Spanish quizzes today. I think I might have failed the first one (again) and then I did average on the other. but I had to give up my lunch to take the quiz.

Oh yes, and at lunch a bird crapped on my head. What good luck, ne? -__- it was in my hair too! ewww, it was so gross, but I couldn't stop laughing. Mom tells me it means good luck. Well, luck or not luck, I had to sit though 6th period with bird crap in my hair.

Lynn lent me her Utena tapes. I've been waiting for a while to barrow them. I mean she talks about how much she loves it all the time. I think it might even be her favorite. Maybe she was afraid I wouldn't like it. I'm pretty open minded when it comes to anime. as long as it not supper, grotesque violent or is down right boring ::: cough:: Record of the Lodess wars ::: cough:: Even though she gave me the dub on tapes, I like it so far. I've seen about 4 episodes. I'm trying to see if I can download the subtitled, because it's always worth a try. But yay! more new anime to watch!

2003-03-10T19:04:00.000-08:00

It took me two weeks, but my DSL is finally back!

and trust me it happend to be a very painful 2 weeks, but at least i know i can survive with out internet. I just can't survive happily.

I have 3 quizes tomarrow, 2 in spanish and one in government. I kind have the "oh cramp" alarm going off in my head right now, but I am chooseing to ignor it and download MP3's insted.

I got my AP sildes back, they look pritty good. But I actully had more last year, which doen't seem to make much scence right now, cause it feels like I've done way more work.

Wow, my DSL is back. I feel like i might wake up and it was all just a dream

2003-03-08T10:36:00.000-08:00

It's kinda funny, that the same week my Internet dies, all this interesting stuff happens to write about.
But I don't like using my moms computer to Blog, unless she is gone. Like she is now. I can't even read fanfiction when she is around.

Oh, I'm glad to see Shatter Star updating her live journal again.

I still feel bad about not updating Sweet Things. People who read it must think I've died. I should probably put up a note. I just don't want to discourage people form coming back. Hopefully Matt will call me and we shall have it fixed tonight.

Last night I went to another good game of Comedy Sports. All most all my friends where there. It feel so nice to hang out after school. We don't do that often enough. But i feel like i fit in pretty well, which for me is about as good as it gets. =0)

Out of boredom, I think I read about 32 Strong-Bad e-mail in a row on Homestarrunner.com. My head might explod or something.

2003-03-08T09:57:00.000-08:00

God, this week, I have had such a string of bad luck it's unbelievable.

First my dog got sick, I cried.
Then my DSL broke, I cried.
I got an F on my Spanish quiz. But fortunately I have a chance to make it up. Yatta!
Then on Tuesday the most horrible thing happened. Right now my aunt in on vacation in Hawaii. Lucky =0P. but anyway, my Mom and I take care of her dog, keli, like usual. On Tuesday after walking Keli, I brought her inside the house and I went in the garage to start my laundry. When I came out less then 8 min's later. The front door was open and the dog was gone. It was just starting to get dark outside. Trying not to panic, I get a flash light and start looking for her. Keli is the kind of dog that when she gets lose, she just runs and there is no stopping her.

I looked for about a half hour when my Mom came home.
I told her I lost the dog. She freaked out and started screaming "Oh, my God."
Then it hit me, just the situation I was in and I then proceeded to ball my eyes out. I couldn't even talk I crying so hard.

She we looked for her for 2 more hours. It's night, it's cold and it's going to rain soon. We have no idea what to do, or where to look for her.
We ended up driving around the neighborhood calling for her.
We go home after hopeless searching.
Now we have to start thinking about what we had to tell my aunt. This made me cry even harder.

Then, my some driven intervention, the stupid dog was waiting at the front door!

That was a roller coaster of an evening. I never want to ahve to live though that agin.

My Mom had a drink and I went to bed.

The End.

2003-03-02T18:40:00.000-08:00

For some unknown reason my DSL decided to give out.
Needless to say I have been very upset, to the point where it's almost embarrassing to talk about it.
I talked to my Internet provider, they gave me some utterly useless advice. I think the problem is with my computer, not the modem. Which is even more upsetting because I have no idea how to fix it.
I'm gunna have to take it in.

I also didn't get a chance to update ST, and I don't have the energy to make up a plot whole, especially since my computer has been funky.
I hope my readers (all 10 of them) understand.

Sometimes life is a bitch.

god, hate dial-up.

2003-02-27T22:05:00.000-08:00

Anyone who has the pet knows what I feeling of terror when their pet is in some kind of danger. It's probably the most scared I have ever been in my life.

As I was walking my dog, Tasha, she suddenly stopped on the path.
She then started pawing in the air and before I knew it she was on the ground having terrible convulsions. I was so scared I didn''t know what to do. I thought she might have been bitten or something.
I can't described how scared I was. Even worse, I had no idea where our vet was.
Fortunately I had been walking her with a friend. She stayed with Tasha while ran like a bat out of Hell to my house to call my Mom at work.
She gave me the address and by the time I got back to my dog, she seemed a little better. This time she recognized me and she wasn't forming at the mouth anymore. She almost seemed back to normal. Which probably meant she had a seizure.

My Mom got out of work and met us at the vet. We got her checked out. she seems fine now. We are not sure if this is a one time thing, or if this is part of a bigger problem.

Anyway, I'm just so glad she is OK, now.
I'm still kinda shacking.

Stupid dog, i love her so much!

2003-02-25T18:15:00.000-08:00

Egh, if it wasn't for anime i might become perpetually depressed or somthing.

I just watched another epiosde of Cowboy bebop, Cowboy Funk. Gee, why did I miss all the really funny one's?

Felt Tip Pen finally broke 1000 hits. I'm makeing a new front page, beacuse it needs a a change.

2003-02-24T22:13:00.001-08:00

I finally watched Marshoom Smomba!
Woot!
ED rules.
Thanks Ryan. =0)

2003-02-24T22:13:00.000-08:00

last night I started writing out Sweet Things in my head before I went to sleep. Thetas what I do before I fall asleep, I write story's, create scenes or characters or even make music video's in my head. I've been doing it for years, it's the best way to get out my ideas, that is if I still remember them the next morning.

Sweet Things has been a project of mine for about a year now, it's kinda crazy when I think about it, I mean I have less than 30 pages to show for it. Well, I finally got myself to shit down and map out the plot for the next 5 chapters I think so far it's about 15 pages give or take. My script (if you would even call it that) is very ruff, but it is what I needed in order to string events together and create what i hope is an interesting plot.

Tonight I suddenly realized, this will not be a short term project. I mean at the rate I'm drawing pages, about one per week, this could take me a few years. LOL. I don't mind that at idea at all. It's just that time has a way of changing things. Am I going to have time or even energy to keep doing a comic for that long? Well, I'm gunna try. It would be nice if I could produce more than one page a week, but between my laziness and school that's not going to happen.

But I'm really excited with what I got down tonight. I just hope people will enjoy reading as much as I have writing it.

2003-02-21T23:48:00.000-08:00

I was actually feeling a lot better today. Emotionally anyway.
I go though downs sometimes. It's nothing serious or anything, but sometimes I have a bad week. Isn't everyone entitled?
Anyway, I'm just glad I'm feeling better. I wonder how long it was last.

I drew some cute sketches this week, i'll post them this weekend. I really should update my art section more, it dosn't display my best work anymore.

I found another Web Comic I like. I'm definatly gunna link this on Felt Tip Pen.
I'ts Zany, original and has some wonderful dark humor, and wonderful art work!

Return to Sender!

If you have time cheek out some of Vera's art work. Just one more person to add to my hit list.
:::sigh::

2003-02-20T22:50:00.000-08:00

For the turely bord and insain
Perpetual Bubblewrap!

Fuck, i really don't want to go to school tomarow.
This week has been really tuff for me, i feel alone.
The most fun i had all day was when we had a sub in Hurburg and we goffed around all class.
That was fun.

2003-02-19T21:01:00.000-08:00

I must be a sick person. I'm listening to the Gravitation sound story III and I don't understand hardly any of it. Actually I can't understand most of it. more like all of it...
-__-
Yes, that's defiantly obsessive. But the Voice actors sound so cute! Especially Seki. ::::swwwwwwwwoooooooooon::::: God, why dose this show how to be filled with such sexy sounding voice artsits? And really funny sounds ones too! And I can't understand a word of it. I'ts not fair!!!!!!!
:::crys::::
And Tatshuwa is in this one! His VA sounds really sex too. I'm surpised he hasn't done more work. Anyway he's meets Ryuichi. He sounds so cute cause he's all hyperventilating and stuff, but Ryuichi doesn't really sound interested. How sad, I think I'm gunna cry!

Why is it always Gravitation that drives me crazy? It makes me into such a fan-girl.

2003-02-18T15:45:00.000-08:00

My eyes are bugging out.
But I guess that's what happens to you after you watch, 7 episodes on Lain in a row.
::kisses her beautiful DSL modem::::
It's a good show, I like it a lot so far. I feel like drawing computer related stuff now. I've always loved the idea of being to connect to a computer with your brain. I was thinking of drawing something Lain like and include it in my art portfolio. Only, I don't think many people in my art class would understand it.

If I happened to be interested in the technical aspect of computers I could see myself being locked in my room for hours and totally going overboard. But the truth is I remain fairly ignorant about how computer work and the hours I spend on my computer are usually just anime or art related.

The truth is, without my computer I would be very lonely. Being the only child, I'm home alone a lot. As soon as I get in the door I go up stairs and go online. It's kinda a sad existence if you think about it. But it keeps me sin mostly. I'd hate to think of what my life be with my computer.

I also found out where to get some more Gohou Drug. yay!

2003-02-16T22:00:00.000-08:00

Lets see, about the only thing I accomplished this weekend is getting ST done on time. Hehe. My mom finally caught wind of my comic. She browed though my site telling me how good it was, and that my drawings are just as good as SOF (i kinda wish i could belive her). You see, my Mom is a pretty cool person. She takes interest in what I love and supports me. She doesn't hang over my shoulder and watch everything I do, because she trusts me. I value that trust a lot. I feel lucky to have her as a Mom, because I know one day when I'm going to collage and I'm struggling in becoming an animator, all I have to do is call her up and she will assure me I have made the right decision in my life. That's what a parent should be like, right?

I said on the retreat not to long ago, I said that she is the strongest person I know. She really is.

I love you Mom.

2003-02-15T00:11:00.000-08:00

Wow, I had two people sing my guest book commenting on Sweet Things in one day. I know that may not seem like such a big deal, but the fact I'm getting some feed back means a lot to me. It makes me want to work even harder and be proud of what I've accomplished so far. Now, I just have to make sure I can keep updating it on time. It feels really good to finally make something people like.

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I saw Dare Devil tonight. It was better than I expected it. Ben actually pulled of the role pretty well. The special effects where awesome, of course. It was a good super hero flick, a bit on the darker side, which is always nice. But the best part was the little part Kevin Smith has in it. Be sure to look for him, if your a fan.

I happened to run into my crush this evening as well, it confirmed my suspicion that he dosne't have a gril friend, it being V day and such. ;0)

2003-02-13T16:02:00.000-08:00

I hold in my hands the ultimate power of the universe.

Yes,

High speed Internet!

Muahahah!

2003-02-12T15:31:00.000-08:00

Rain! So much dam rain today. I'm soaked though and though. I cant understand why Lynn likes it so much!

I was really upset on Monday cause I got my first ever F on a Spanish Quiz. And I even studied. But today, I did better on the grammar section. Bu that means my grade is still in shabby shape. I must do well on the test.

A lot happened this weekend, actually, I'm just to lazy to write about all of it.
I actually updated ST fairly on time. I wish I had more time to work on it, but like I feared this semester has a lot more work.

I hate English class this year. All we do are pointless research essays. but I didn't even want to get into that right now.

On the plus side I am enjoying learning to work with Cinema 4D in my animation class. I haven't done any animating yet, but I think I'm having more fun modeling. There are some people on diviantart.com who have some awsomeitaed looking work. I am no where near any skill. But, it's my hope that I'll be able to model Chi and Cha, my to little angel and demon characters.

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I spent some money at the anime cart. I was panning to buy the second DVD to Candidate for Goddess. But I found the first DVD to FLCL. Well, I just had to get it. Who ever made the DVD did a really nice job in my opinion. Everything but the dub is great. But I'm always harsh on dubs. But, I do like the sound of the English voice actress who plays Haruko. To me, it sounds like she's actually trying to emulate the original. Weather or not she's successful at it is another story.
The best part of the DVD is the Japanese directors commentary. He explained a few things that I found really interesting. Now, i have to buy the next one!

i also bought the nexy Chobits, which was good, as always.

so much manga, so little cash.

2003-02-03T22:26:00.000-08:00

another typical ho-hum weekend for me. But I did get to meet some interesting people at my cousins B-day party.

I love my family a whole lot. In a sense they are all I have left of my father. But unfortunately at time they are not the happiest bunch of people. Most of them being single and broke. Our dinner conversation includes movies, death and destruction, and then movies about death and destruction -__-

So you can understand my relief when my uncle, a record producer in Australia, brought over his current "project." They are a band stright form Down Under. Porcelain is there name, but I have no clue what kind of music they play, cause I haven't them play yet. Well, they are staying at my aunts house, so they where all there for my cousins B-day party. There where 6 of them. They where all very nice and kept the family form talking about how many different ways the world could be destroyed. We mostly talked about the differences between Australia and America. Very interesting.

For instance I learned that "Rooting," you know like when you "routing for the home-team," there it means fornication. LOL

I should hope I'll get to hear them play soon, right now they are just getting settled in.

2003-01-30T17:55:00.000-08:00

Nate showed this one to me.

Somebody in the British Parliament got busted...

LOL

2003-01-28T22:25:00.000-08:00

I dunno, I just feel like rambling at the moment....

It's funny how I act differently when I meet new people. In certain citations I'm completely relaxed and normal. Like today in class for example, I meet this guy who likes anime. It was break, and he approached me and we chatted for a bit. I didn't nerves or uncomfortable.

But on Monday, I meet this perfectly nice girl at the anime cart, and for some reason, I got really nerves. My hands where kinda shaking and I felt all self conscious. I'm not really sure why I would get nerves around her and not around the guy. Maybe it's because I get so excited to meet someone on the same so called "wave length." It's amazing sometimes how alone I feel because of my obsession with anime. There are very few people I can really talk to about it. I think I was just excited. I mean we where talking about conventions, and cosplay and j-pop. Being into anime is sometimes like speaking a different language, people who aren't 'fluent' don't always understand. Anyway, we even exchanged screen names her, but I haven't chatted with her yet. It' be nice to make a new online friend.

Even though Lepord Boy still IMs me, he' only intrested in seeing pictures of me. I think he really is only insrested in a "online freindship" -__-
but I suck a flirting =0P
Makes me feel like an idiot.
Anyway, Enough of that toipic!

cha, but It always feels nice to meet someone with the same interests as me.

2003-01-26T21:07:00.000-08:00

I wanted to write an entry on Friday but I was way to brain dead. Friday wasn't a good day. I think I did very poorly on both of my hardest finals. I'll just have to wait and see what happens when my report card come in the mail. ugh.

So I got home I was feeling down, miserable and depressed. But then sitting on the couch was a package. The package that contained my drawing table that I order a week ago. Needless to say it made my day a whole lot better. It maybe took me less than 30 min to have it ripped out of the box and installed on my comp. It's a 6x8 Wacom. It was worth the money I paid for it. *Meep* is was like Christmas all over again. Then after playing with it for a few hours I picked up the girls and we hopped of to Comedy Sporzt. It was absolutely hilarious as always. We have some really funny people on our team this year.

So It turned out to be a good day in the end. But I'm not sure how long that happiness will last. I have a bad feeling that second semester is going to be a bitch.

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. This manga is deliciously yaoi and should be read by anyone who enjoys seeing bishounen running around in stylish loincloths. Oh, and they story is good. And the style of the art. OMG! I luv it.
Just take a look at the cover and you'll know what I mean.

::drools:::

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I also finished watching FLCL on Friday. It stands to be one of my favorite anime of all times, right up there with Kare Kano and Gravitation. I think most people can't get over the weirdness, but it has the one thing I love most in any anime. Crazy characters.

:::Spoilerness down below! :::::

(not sure if i spelled names correctly, to lazy to check)

I really like Hurako's character. I liked her at first because she was just crazy and funny. but at the end I realized how power hungry she really is. She is driven to use anyone who will help her get what she wants. Worst of all she and acts completely innocent with her intentions. You want to believe her, but in the end she very manipulative. And poor Naota. He's just a poor kid with absolutely no role model. No wonder why he hates adults, his father is irresponsible and he has no mother. Even his brother, the only one he had to look up too, moves away. I have a feeling part of the reason he falls for haurko, she acts as a kind of parental figure to him. She is the only one who generally shows interest in him, even if in the end it's just to get what she wants. Naoto, just wants be someone of significance to someone. I think thats why he likes that crazy Miami. He wants to help her. To be important to someone.

:: end spoilers:::

Anyway I'm sure there is someone who could analyze this anime far better than I could, but that was just a few thoughts that stuck with me. This is one of the only anime where I could watch the anime 5 time in a row and notice something new. I really like that aspect.

2003-01-23T16:08:00.000-08:00

It's almost the end of the semester and instead of being generally pleased that half the school year is over, IM rather depressed about what is to come next.
Something that started a few mouths an ago and I tended to ignore has finally sunk into my reality. I'm 'loosing' a bunch of my friends. I don't mean loosing in the sense are not getting along anymore. But in the sense things are staring to change. What I mean is, next semester 2 of my best friends won't be going to school anymore. Julia is taking the GED and Matt is going into independent study and I haven't seen john in over 3 mouths. It's down to just me and Lynn. And it just feels kinda depressing that I'm not going to see them as often. I understand that I can see them on the weekends and all that. But they don't understand. We where all supposed to be together for senior year, that's the way it's supposed to work.

2003-01-21T19:53:00.000-08:00

Yay!
Strings of Fate is Back!
At this nifty new adress
http://www.stringsoffate.com/ <--one of the aritsts that I admire.
Her style is sooo cool!